iåmNotEmo

2010-02-23T19:13:00.002+08:00

Back to posting.Currently very busy and unlucky.don't ask why and what,just purely unlucky.hope it will change asap.nothing much to post too.need to thanks Darling and JX for accompanying me and helping me really alot alot alot.saving money for alot of SPECIAL mission.top secret i guess so no point asking me what's it.lazy to type already.going to see doctor later on.bye peoples!

P.S. I miss you and i will be seeing you tomorrow!!

Chinese new year 2nd day

2010-02-15T23:02:00.005+08:00

Today was not just fine but excellent due to the outing with me and darling.kekes.met her at queenstown mrt station and that was the first time i saw her tied her hair and met me.i was happy cause i told her i would gladly like to see how she look like with her hair tied.she look cute and nice today + always.then went to amk bigger S-11 to eat lunch.both of us ordered fried rice but different ingredients.was full but stomach pain later on due to i can't eat food that contain a lot of oil.overall we still agree that it was acceptable to eat and okay.

Back to AMK Hub to take 135 down to east coast park.chit-chat in the bus,she once again lie on my shoulder and rest which the last time was so long ago.reached the bus-stop we went to my working place to say hello and new year greetings to my working place's friendS.after that just walked to the bowling place to slack and get some air-con.the weather was extremely hot.went up to the arcade later on to have some fun and indeed it was fun.she punched the machine which make me laughed all the way.drank coffee bean's coffee and went to the beach for sight-seeing.sight-seeing for quite a time,took her photos.time was short so we need to get her back home.Bused down to AMK mrt first then queenstown.she was tired and sick!!!!hope she get well soon.i guess i might be going to get some fever medicine from the pharmacy for her.today was a happy and great day for me and her.

P.S. With loves,the normal day can be extremely unexpected day for a couple.

Darling Loupo,get well soon.hope your fever will subside asap.drink more water and take more care like always.huggies and kisses from me to you. xxx33

mood swing

2010-02-12T00:37:00.002+08:00

Now like the same things as always.sitting inside in my room and typing.chatting with my dear also.don't know why she like no mood.tried to talk to her properly and everything but there's a feeling like she don't want to talk to me.seriously suddenly no mood.don't want to carry on typing also.just wanna go lie down and let the fan blow me asleep.

P.S. Today's not a day i wanted!!

random

2010-02-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

Me currently in my room typing here.Waiting for my baby to message me after she finish her things.going to pack my room.New Year is coming soon and it's going to be a boring one this year except for the 2nd day cause i can meet baby.planning where to go on that day then after that going to stop my stupid slacking and starting studying.pull my socks,pants,sleeves and boxer up.WORK HARD.after THAT PLAY HARD.

now harder and harder to continue typing long compos.so i will just stop here.

P.S. Hope baby faster get well.don't so sick sick de.loves from me to you! x3

Part 2

2010-02-09T22:50:00.004+08:00

Now in my room just ate finish my dinner.it's so plain but still filling.Chatting with my Darling on the phone.sweating like hell.it's so hot.B4 that played dota with brothers.then now i am so so freaking tired.i just wanna close my eyes and lie down on the hard but comfy bed of mine.

Don't know what to type.anyhow type then delete.i am so no life for now this moment.so i am not going to type anymore.i am just going to have a good long nice chat with my darling.and hope everyone have a good night.tmr a better day! Signing OFF: your uncle

Me and my Darling

2010-02-09T13:25:00.003+08:00

Today o9.o2.1o le.Me and baby's 5th month together le.feel bad cause yesterday i am suppose to chat with her then i went to sleep 1st.so today later in the night i am going to chat with her.hope she today don't have any headache or giddy.

Me so lazy this few days.feeling so restless.wanna keep sleeping and sleeping!i can sleep for about 10 hours a day.now still earlier so i don't know what else to post.maybe in the night i will post again if i am not lazy.

Happy 5th Month Anniversary baby.hope you always take care, daxin.dont always eat those heaty food and drink more water.Don't be affected by some problems then become very sad or angry.i will try my best to cheer you up.if you never do all those thing you are suppose to do i am going to knock your head.

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush<3

Hock's Birthday

2010-02-08T23:42:00.002+08:00

Today still quite ok ba...some things happen but don't wanna speak about them.unhappy things should appear less here.the morning started where i didn't went to school cause i over slept.then my baby called me cause so late le i haven message her which i was suppose to do cause i need to wake earlier than her.Thanks baby for the phone call.Chit-chat on the phone awhile with her till i went to do my things...

Later in the noon went to meet Hock,Vincent,YiLiang,Shimeon at AMK Virtual Lan.after that went to my the coffee shop behind my house to celebrate hock's birthday.ChengHong and Eunice came along later to eat with us.Bought a birthday cake celebrate already,do the coke experiment.den drank coffee at starbucks with some of them.After that bused home.Chatting with my wife now.so hope everyone have a good rest.Takecare peeps!

P.S. Tonight's gonna be a good good night~

SHIT LIFE

2009-10-10T21:15:00.004+08:00

Everything is just my day.BLAME ME FOR IT.HATE ME FOR THAT.DISLIKE ME FOR THIS.JUST MY LIFE.I AM ON MY OWN.I WILL BE INDEPENDENT.NEVER MIND.I REN REN REN REN REN REN REN AND KEEP REN EVERYTHING I JUST REN.I TAHAN THATS ALL.MY LIFE IS DAMMED!!!GIVE YOU ALL SCOLD THAT'S ALL I NEED TO DO.CAN'T EVEN DO A THING RIGHT.

Sorry Laopo,make you unhappy.i feel bad towards you.i am sorry.and this post isn't saying you.x3

Unhappy

2009-10-10T20:43:00.002+08:00

Here is my second post.Heart very very very very very very very pain.Don't know how to explained it out.She chatted with me on the phone but somehow the conversation went out of place and seemed like things were all wrong.i am the one in wrong,i am sorry.i was working and planning very hard for my "Project" but only a few people know how much the importance of the project carries for me.It is worth my my sweat,brain juice,time and heart for it but her smiles and happiness is much more important than it of cause.The conversation went off because of my bad temper.Just because i can't bear the words she said to me therefore my mood changed.i am in fault 1st because she messaged me and i didn't reply her messages,as i was doing my "Project" and buying materials for it.

My heart hurts not because she said those things,rather because i could not suppress my sadness and i can't say out what i really wanted to.just hope that you can bear with me.please!!i really really hope we are fine.i am sorry for making you so sad and unhappy totally changing your cheerful mood to downhearted,dejected and gloomy.Dui bu qi.i am really really very sorry.hope today will just be forgotten and the good will appear tomorrow.

Ling Ling & Fan Fan Cheer Up.Reach for the Happiness

1st month anniversary

2009-10-10T19:07:00.002+08:00

Well, i am suppose to blog a few days ago about my 1 month anniversary with my stead.i didn't blog because of me and my "project" plus some other reasons.because that we both wanted to write our anniversary message in the blog,but her message was in Chinese then i can't type Chinese with the laptop i am using.Eventually i thought of going to friend' s house to borrow the computer to type out the post.In the end, i didn't and so i typed out with the laptop using Google's language tools to translate English to Chinese although spent some time translating it but it was worth it.We celebrated our day not on the actual day but rather the day before.Bought the jacket she always wanted at Tamp.

After that walked around then bus-ed 168 to woodlands.During the ride she slept till so sweet,but i forgotten to take photo of her.never mind, there will still be chances for me to do that.Walked around woodlands then went to the arcade to play games.we played the table hockey,won 3 rounds being with her but she wasn't happy losing to me.i was smiling all the way playing with her but not because i won her,is because the way she played was so cute and funny.plus because i was playing with her that's why so happy.

Went out of the popular then Mrt-ed to Lot 1's streets stall(pasa malam) to eat the cup corn as i remembered she said she wanted to eat it.After that went inside Lot 1 walked around after that Mrt-ed to Queenstown to send her home.Sat in the Mrt chit chat a little then went home le.During the trip back i started writing a anniversary message to her.it was quite long i think?cause it took me 11 messages to send,but most importantly she did smile because of the message.She was a little worried or maybe angry cause i didn't reply her messages therefore i send the message earlier than the time which i decided to send.Don't mind about the right timing a not,just mind that she is not angry with me.Below is the message she sent me,i smiled reading it.

◘今天是我们の
一个月快乐...
希望每一天都会快乐
也希望炒饭你每天都
过的很好 xoxo
不要一点点就不开心
_ _
Vin Vin → Kei Kei
珍惜每一分每一秒
我们的の开始

That's the message she sent me and worried that she did not have the heart because of the present plus her short message.What matters is that i know she got the heart can already.Took photos of the present she gave me but i can't upload it so i can't show it to you peoples but it is nice.thank you laopo for everything and the day you gave me

Me and your Promise
勾勾手指

2009-09-26T14:07:00.002+08:00

I don't know what is wrong with me now.i am seriously down again.it was actually fine till all the things came up all of a sudden.my mood is totally changed now.i don't know what i am suppose to do now or what i am going to write here.it is just that i want to make her much better by saying out what is with me but after saying she don't even want to hear me explain it.i am a failure in relationship.i can't make all my relationship go well.i always make the opposite side unhappy.

Sorry to message you that way today as i am really confuse over what you are thinking and over-worried for you.guess i am really tired and mood-less.should i be going to Adli's house later?i don't even have the mood to even breathe.i just want to explain to her that i am sorry that i compared her with my first ex.not because she is better than you but rather you are far more better than her a lot more times.it is like i am in the same scenario but different people.i just hope that you can let me explain and hear what i want to said without any interruption.can you?

x3 Ice Cream

Worrying day

2009-09-24T15:29:00.004+08:00

I am back!My last post was at 11 August which was quite some time ago.different from the last post,i am much better now.contented with my life but i want much better than right now.My com was destroyed around 11 August therefore i didn't continue blogging.Though i still haven't get a new com but i am here using my sister's laptop for awhile.don't know when will be my new com coming in but 1st i think i need a job.i am in debt with my family especially my sister.O$P$!!! don't worry, i can come up with a solution and return her the money i O!

I am worrying someone down here now.don't know if she is fine or not.didn't answer my calls nor reply my messages.might be that she is resting or watching television or doing housework or others???i can't get the correct answer till she reply me.all i can do here now is just pray that she's alright and worry for her.even if i wanna dash down to her house and see her,that will just make her life even more difficult.you said you don't want me to worry so much for you while i am sick but how am i suppose to do that when i don't know if you are really fine.all i ever wanted is that you are fine and no matter what happens to me i don't mind also.whatever happens to you or you are feeling unwell you must tell me.take loads of care.

By the way,i lost my phone some time around when my computer spoil if you wanna contact me please leave offline message at msn.sorry for the inconvenience cause.Hais, i go on continue worrying for that person.See ya peoples.

x3 Ice Cream

2009-08-11T00:46:00.001+08:00

Hmm...Just another day to begin with.maybe with some changes already after the 4 days ago.the things which happen today i don't want to write it out.it is so late now already and i still can't sleep.i am seriously tired but i can't get to sleep.i think i seriously am going to destroy myself.i can't take it anymore.at night YL send my some techno.my mei came to chit chat with me a little.after that i went to hear the techno,blasting my ears.at first i stop thinking of anything which i was,then i thought i really can relax myself already.but in the end???it failed i still keep thinking and missing someone.tried to called but no people pick up the phone,she got her reasons but i think it is just a irritating thing i did by calling her.i should not have called her and should not even have message her but when she tell me about the mother things i started to reply.hmmm, i don't know what i am doing plus i don't know who i am to you now.i will tried to get some sleep after eating 5 sleeping pills because ytd i ate 3 and i sleep for 2 hours...so hoping that i can sleep for 5 hours with those pills...sleep the whole day i also don't mind i don't even have the mood to go to school.it just felt like i am going to school like not the regular way??but forget it man.i need to get used to the way i am going to school now.alone doesn't matter,got my mp4 with me.nothing can stop me already.maybe will just keep thinking all the way to school,in school,after school,on the way home.aiya the whole day thats it.

who who who who who am i to you??
what do you treat me as??
Thanks Vincent,Yiliang,Shim,JunAn and Mei for spending their time on me.especially my mei.hehes...thanks mei...kor got time treat you go eat a meal.

morning dropdead

2009-08-10T11:45:00.003+08:00

Well well well...let's see...it is 12 now.i woke up at 11.slept at 8.45.after the calculations,i think i only slept for about 2hours and 15 minutes.sooner or later i will break down de.felt tired but tried to go back sleep and it does not work.even if i tried eating the sleeping pills,i can't even sleep yet.but today i did received a message today by her,felt really happy when she told me to take care but it was sad again when i remembered that she is trying hard to be with him back too.do you know i always have the temptation to message you?calling you?my mei know it only ba,so far i think only she know about the problem.press reply and type out what i want to say and cancel it after i had finished typing.putting my finger at your contact wanting to call you but i just can't press it.hais,if only pain killer can stop this kind of pain it will be wonderful.but it is not possible,because everyone won't be hurt by relationships.

Now still sitting here thinking and thinking.i really wanted to reply you but i just think that it would be much better for you to get better with him.all i can think of is you and him getting well,you and him being happy.you happy jiu hao can already is what i have been always saying.i also hope you wear your hoodies when you are cold,or you will get a cold plus fall sick.drink more water too and don't too stress with your work.things will work out for you two and it surely will i guess?i don't know what to write anymore or you can say i don't want to write anymore.sometimes hurting your ownself can make you stop thinking things.

Sleepless night

2009-08-10T02:42:00.004+08:00

Sleepless.it is 3.00am and i am still sitting in my room using the computer,blogging here.while blogging i am chatting with my god sister too.we are somehow explaining our life to each other.i don't know why i still can't sleep for now.when i closed my eyes it somehow brought me back to the past of what happened.the smiles,jokes,laughter and sillyness which i somehow just can't forget.if i can somehow take a watch and hypnotize myself and forget it i would be sleeping now.but maybe it won't even work if i tried to do that.don't know what should i do.maybe i should make myself do "IT" again then i can stop thinking about it.

Just now went to Ke Wei's house for a barbecue.went there with my mei and jasper.reached there and helped out a little then went to fetch vincent at the bus-stop.later on just stayed there eating and playing ps3,computer games.felt that there was nothing for me to do so just kept playing and playing if not will keep thinking about things.but somehow it doesn't work for me.even playing games i still can think of things which i hope i can stop thinking althought i am not willing to forget them.well then carried on all the way like this at his house.bused home with jasper at 11 plus.now here blogging all this,feeling so tired but i can't fall asleep.i should start restocking on my sleeping pills.they do help alot for problems like this.a pill a day,stops the thinking an hour. things that i am wondering is that how is the person doing?fine with him?ate already?got takecare?not sick right?must be happy now ba?am i thinking too much?YES YOU ARE!ignore me.i think i am goin insane soon or i will be able to handle this.i don't care le...go watch tv and chat with my mei.lazy to write.or should i say i don't know what else to write anymore.hais..Smile like you mean it peoples~

2009-08-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

Basically i don't know if you will be seeing this post.it might be either a yes or a no.just to let you know,i don't hate you but actually i am making all the sad things to myself.i don't need you to believe me nor i am trying to say that i am very wei da.so after all if you think that i hate you then it is alright with me.you happy then everything is fine with me.the more further you leave me and forget me,the closer you will get to him and much better with him.the scissors and thumbdrive you need not return them to me.you can keep and use them ba.sad things i one person bear with it.you happy and must takecare ownself can already.by not replying you you can say that i hate you or whatever but it is up to you to see how you want to put it.what i say will only just be excuses only.from the bottom of my heart i already wish you two happy le.

I want to thank all the friends which forgive me yesterday.especially jiamin,i think i own you alot.then really contented that they are willing to cheer me up,stay by me and support me.then i don't know what else to write.maybe the whole day i am laughing and running around,talking about stupid things and lame jokes but i just can't stop thinking and wondering about things.all those things which happened and all those things which i longed for.all just ended the way which i didn't really want it to be.i going to chat with my mei now le.she want to know about somethings which happened yesterday afternoon and night.so just takecare ba.

The further you leave me,
the nearer you got to him.
The moment you start walking,
is the moment which i hoped you will turn back and look at me.

i kept silence

2009-08-05T20:11:00.002+08:00

Seriously i don't know how should i write or whether i am going to write everything out here.maybe not going to write everything.well, past few days have a lot of things happening though some of it are not mine but some how it affected me and my mood too.

Feeling bad on my sister birthday celebration cause they were cutting the cake downstairs at the BBQ pit and i was feeling a little dizzy and nauseous so stayed on bed to rest but i did went down at 12 to give her the present and wished her happy birthday.Don't know what is happening?maybe dying soon or what?my body feels pain and lots of problem.

Next is the problem which only some people know??but think they are already alright for now so nothing to say about just that she don't think so much about the problem.but i am not going to say anything about it too cause what i say also got no use.so don't want to say anything much more.things i should care for you,i fulfill them.things i can do for you,i did too.anything within my limits i never consider a no.

There is things i wanted to say or voice out but i didn't.i keep my mouth shut till even micro-organism cannot get in.Because if say the things out, you will thinking of other things again.trying to treat you even better but i don't know how.treating you too well is like hurting you,but not treating you well hurts even more.i got problems but i don't know how to say or whom to tell.you got your problems and share with you so even if i tell you my problems you also wont be thinking about it so i guess not saying is the best thing to do?i seriously is on the verge or breaking down and apart.it feels like i am going to give up but i am not willing to.just wondering if you are fine always an everything.words i wanted to tell you just now kept inside and i don't wan to say them anymore.hope you are fine can already.nothing else i want to say or to voice out.you happy jiu hao le.

是我想太多

2009-07-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

你笑著說他是朋友
但你眼中太溫柔

我的不安那麼沉重
只有你不懂

他霸佔了你的心中
屬於我的角落
所以你說我們不是你和我

是我想太多你總這樣說
但你卻沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸佔了你的心中
屬於我的角落
所以你說我們不是你和我

是我想太多你總這樣說
但你卻沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我沒有錯怪了什麼雖然你不說
或許錯在我太晚我才懂愛了你太多

是我想太多你總這樣說
但你卻沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由

you are too stress with your work ba.you jiayous wor.
maybe what i wrote just now was just all my thinkings.hais!

Heart Hurting?or i am thinking too much?

2009-07-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

Today woke up early in the morning as my lesson starts at 8 but i was still late by half an hour or so.When i reached, i did not expect myself to pay attention to lesson but i did.Later during MME i was there playing around with the tools making some weird shapes and motions by using Flash application.

After that 12 break,went to coffee shop with Amzar, Adli , Abu and Yani as some of us wanted to eat.the milo there is like drink water instead.i think plain water is much better than the milo there.Yani and me didn't eat only, so we were taking rubbish at the coffee shop.Went back to school for lesson at 1.In class got online test,the 1st test i only got 68%, 2nd test i got 95% not really contented with my 1st result.

Lesson end already went to ubi with the same people to check out some materials that Amzar need for his temporary sales store.During the bus trip was funny.alot of funny things did happen but at the same time i was thinking about alot of things.why did you reply me this way?is this the way you usually reply me?maybe i thinking too much le ba.hais

Yani went home from there as she stayed somewhere nearby there.we walked around Ubi for stalls selling woods but alot of things happen.We went around searching for the shop at Building 1.so later we split into 2 groups,i was with Adli.We found the place and call them over..YEA! but they don't sell wood there =.= stupid shop.after searching for sometime Amzar decided to fall back home.took bus 63 to eunos Mrt.Drop down at Paya Lebar with Amzar to check out the place and later went to have food at subway.starting we were lost and i don't wan to mention that.the whole trip was like lost here and there but it is ok.We all take it as adventurous.

不知你为何听起来好想很不开心
当我问你的时后,你就说你真的没事
我就在想~不知道是否是真还是假
也许你真的没有事吧,是我想太多了
只知道是我想太多了吧
你没事就好了吧,你好相有事但说不出
记得吃和喝就好了,不想看见你不开心
很不想看到的就是你为我而不开心
不管发生什么样的事我看我都无能为力的帮你吧?Hais D:

2009-07-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

Uhhs...i think i start posting those things which i should post a few days again.i forgotten which day and what's the date where i went out cycling with Cheng Hong, Vincent, Hock, Yiliang and Shimmy.Actually i thought that day was Carnival but it was postponed.We are suppose to meet at 1 but when i called Hock and Cheng Hong around 12 plus going to 1, one said on the way.The other said because no people call me so i still at home.Come on man, you guys organize the outing then i need to call you all and do everything??

Forget about that, later went east coast~~~then blah blah blah.rented bike and starting riding like nothing is going on.chit chat while riding, molesting here and there,ringing the bell like nobody's buisness and thinking of things.when we reached our usual destination,either have ice-cream or drinks.after finish buying all those we went to the sea side to have a sit and i started emoing there.we all sang the song Xiang Tai Duo,but i keep singing it repeatedly.later they started taking some photos.those photos are below,i know it is kind of lame.

The sea we are facing.

i don't know what they are doing but i did heard soemthing like teletubies?or whatever.

i don't know what i am thinking.maybe you?
join in with me.

next please.

emo also got queue?

full...no more slot.

i guess i am going off 1st.

picture of one for all and all for one.

our fortunes.maybe still there.=.= not

M.S. you better takecare of yourself.if not you will get a knock by me you this DSD. :D

dumb me

2009-07-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

uhhs.earlier in the morning went to meet people and off to school like some usual days.after that blah blah blah...skip to school part.(i can't possibly write every single thing i did like how many times did i breath in)

P.E lesson was bored as i can't do any sport or i should say that i am not allowed to do.because i was not in attire and like what i wrote at the previous post, i fell down due to some stupid reasons so i can't move my leg like usual.Tomorrow will be fine i guess.Then after that went to have a meal with Li Quan(hope i spelled it correctly) cause i was really hungry and craving for chicken rice.Maybe it has been sometime since i ate it.kind of miss the food but after the meal i decide that i would skip chicken rice for a few days.

Blah blah blah...fast forward again as i am real lazy now.i didn't know that it was Amzar and Jun's birthday today so i wished them happy birthday plus their wishes will come true.In class we sang song for Amzar and some gave him last min b'dae card.Well,as we are installing printers for our lesson today so they printed papers out for him.He must be so touched man,because they wrote HANDSOME AMZAR.
After lesson,i got food and green tea that i wanted to give someone.guess what?i am just too silly.the person was already on the way home and i was still holding the food without even notifying the person.guess i am dumb hur?then i was reluctant to tell the person what i am going to throw but it was the food.i know i am wasting food but i seriously have no appetite at that time.i also don't know what to write anymore.just end it here

Happy Birthday Amzar + Jun!!!!

Takecare hor you this DSD.don't go purposely fall down or what.you surely give me knock your head if you do that.i am serious.don't do this kind of things hor!

Why is this happening?

2009-07-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

Dots Dots Dots.New day,new wounds,new things,new experience and some same things.i don't know what is going on with me.doing the wrong stunts at the wrong time?falling down?haven wounds all over but i am ok.not worries guys and duhhs,it does hurts.i did not slept the whole night.i was there using computer listening to music at Vincent's house.listening and listening,all of the songs i heard was sad songs.maybe god hinting me something?or just pure coincidence?then i starting watching Vincent sleeping there but i am not a pervert or what.just that he can sleep so well and i can't.maybe there are lots of things going through in my mind.it is hard to say out althought i know what i am thinking.

Then after that i used the computer till 1.p.m then i woke him up.then we planned to go and play some basketball.Called ZH to come and play too.so Vincent went to bath and i was talking to people on the phone.house conflicts.hear le but don't wad to say best.later said wrong things might make the person sad.i know how the person feels as my was worst then that.i am not expecting sympathy here but jus trying to let the person know that i understand how you feel.thought she might said something like kill you or what.why not try asking her to kill me 1st.if she can't kill me(who is a outsider) then i don't think she is capable of killing you.think you might think alot since you also wrote it out le.maybe you might be sad maybe you might be not.cause you are not telling me also.you can act a nothing infront and hurt at the back.what i can do is just lend you a listening ear and a crying shoulder.if there is something more i can do i surely will try my best to do it.so 1st you will have to let me know.ok?DSD~~.

After that playing basketball that time not really fun lurhs.played till quite fierce i guess?Vincent played till quite serious.got win got lose ba.so nothing to lose out also.after the games we went for some drinks,ZH went home.Cabbed home with Vincent since we stay quite near but still a little distance.so now i am home,bathed,worn out,almost dead,hungry but don't feel like eating,feeling pain and bored.tomorrow will be going to school i guess?even if i am injured.promised to study.so must fulfill my study promise for once.=x but i think i wearing long pants cause i don't want people to see the injuries.@.@ i guess i will write till here then.hope everyone is fine especially you(DSD).don't ttm.

How to say?Tears are coming down

2009-07-10T20:14:00.001+08:00

I am back here blogging again.guess this is the 1st time which i said that i will come back to blog and i did.now thinking back i some sort made lots of promises and i did not fulfill them.Well...seriously i don't know what to write here.my mind have lots of things spinning round and round and i am listening to the song "Right Round".kind of making my head giddy already.

Hmm...guess i will start off by apologizing and thanking people??there are a few people i want to apologize and thank.guess i start off with the thanks.i really want to thanks Hock, Vincent, Shimeon, Hungwei, Amzar, Mei, Jun Xiang, Jasper and some others which i might forget to state here.want to thanks you guys for what you have given me.without you guys i won't be here today(copy from show).honestly that you guys really did a great part in my life but you all might not notice.a little might have a big outcome.

After that i want to say sorry to some people.1st of all might be jasper??did you feel weird that i didn't shout at you on the phone the last time i called you??when i asked why you told her those things which isn't a fact?cause i seriously thinking that if i shouted at you the relationship of friend will be worst.but there is not difference from now too hur?but i no longer bear grudges or what with you.just that i don't know how to start a conversation with you.Seriously in the past i only can find you or JX to chat about my sadness or happenings and joking around.but life has been different.maybe i am getting mature?or emo?i sincerly apologise.

Secondly i want to apologize to Hui Xian.i think there might be some misunderstanding between you and her but i hope you 2 can settle it out fine.you 2 really look like best friends/couples.just that i might be the third party hurting the relationship of you 2.sorry.i didn't know what is happening and i thought is my fault so i called you.but i didn't know the truth.so please forgive.want to blame you can blame me instead.

Thirdly is DSD.guess you have not realised that after you know me more and more unhappy things happened around you?you and him argued and saying eaching other.My busy-bodyness make you and Hui Xian like this.but all i wan to say is sorry.really sorry.hope that you can be happy.maybe like what you said hur?be friends hur?

The others i don't want to say.if i want to apologize, i will apologize from calls or messages.cause it is kind of personal matters so i don't want to write them here.From now on i won't be having any high hopes of people forgiving or what.but i have said my piece.if you don't believe in my apology please don't criticise it.

I don't know why i am saying all this.it is kind of weird,maybe i am just having a little mood swings.but i will be alright.don't mind me.Hope you guys can be happy and smile.

我不知道应该如何才可以让你的生活比现在还好过
但是如果我必需消失在你的人生中而你才会开心多一些
我会不惜一确有其事切有其事而在你的人生中消失掉
因为只要你有不开心的一时刻,我不知道该如何让你好过一些
既然如此我觉得要是当初你没有认识我的话,你的日子也不会变成这个样啊!
但不管什么事你都可以去面对它吧.想想我跟你说的故事吧
10% is what happens to me,90% is how i react to it.

我开始越来越恨我自己了.不要问我为什么,只需要知道我是这样对我知己的.

Bad Day

2009-07-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

Seriouly hate today.but not angry or wad barhs...just sad...real sad...going to emo le.don't tell me not to emo when you told me all those things...i thought theres was hope and yet you just say those words which made me back into darkness..guess thats the way you want then i wont object.got things to do now.so maybe cont later or wad barhs... </3

Past Few Days

2009-06-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

Yea, Yea ,Yea..blog had already rot.now free then just anyhow write...did a lot of things for the past few weeks.went out with friend.attended the SC camp, played basketball and stayed home using com.Watch some movies which are nice and funny.Like MVA and Land of The Lost.Made me laugh there.Well, guess the movie director was good as he could make everyone smile from the movie. Then after the movie of Land of The Lost that time.Where Vincent, Zhi Hong and i went to played midnight basketball till around 6plus.after all rush home to rest le.Zhi Hong must be the most tired of all.Cause he is the 1st one sitting down at the bench and sleeping.=.= left me and Vincent playing there.Hmm..thats all for that day if i am not wrong. The SC camp seriously cannot tahan.Not say bad or what.but just say that it isn't what i think of.i dont like playing water bombs.plus worst of all.someone scolded the SC seniors.cause they sprayed water on his head when he had his hair styled.Then after the incident, they carried on their activities like dog and bone.they say there will be 4 stages(which has 4 different items).each different items get different point.and the 4th item is a secret item which comes out only at the last stage.Guess what?!the last stage started and the secret item was a CHICKEN.REAL CHICKEN.OMG, off all the things to use.they took a raw chicken to play with.then later most of the games i didn't play.don't feel like playing anymore.but did play the 6 items thingy.then at the hall where the lights are off.bunch of us playing there.switching on the music and dancing(shuffle, Jumpstyle , breakdance and tektonic).Fun but tired.so after that went to sleep.The next morning 8 plus i told them i got something on and went home early.Guess i lazy type le..the other things i later then carry on...for now i put this photos ba. Attempt 1 to get this 2 to take a photo together

Attempt 2.SUCCESSFUL

Just ånother Day ågain

2009-05-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

Haiyo~ just like everytime.i don't know how to start off.it is like so much things i wanna say and write out but i just don't know to say it all out.Days passing just like that.snap snap fingers and it is night already.so much things i want to do within a day but of course it is impossible.Went out with different people at different days.but most days with same people.

Got met up with Prawn a.k.a prawn,frog mei,actually wanted to met up with vincent but just time problem.well there is still other day to celebrate his bdae with him so nothing to worry about.so i am still looking forward to meeting him and other people to hang out sometimes.it has been so long since i saw him.Then met up with Prawn ytd go to the mother's house make com awhile then go walk walk.before i went to find i was with someone talking.but the person didn't seem really that happen then it is like she was infront of me acting a smile.D: think that momo ren really isn't really that good.having a sad mood barhs?but just hope that momo ren will cheer up and be the one she said she was before.she looks much more better when momo ren smiles ba.don't know why my stomach so small but can store so much food inside.amazed by myself too.

Then about today uhhs~i think nothing much of a happening ba.morning sleep like dead person don't wanna wake up and was wondering if mei and vincent will be asking me out like they did planned.but never so nvm lurhs.then after that went to someplace.momo ren don't know i behind so momo ren told me that lucky you not here with me if not you will see me almost goin to fall down due to the oily floor.lucky didn't fall lurhs.didnt expect momo ren to hit me so hard.pain de sia.head later got any bumps i will find you.bought finish the food and off momo ren went home so i also went home.reached home then down there saying back my mother.only momo ren know what my mother said.just the normal things ma.used to it le.sua sua sua and sua le. D:

Get Well soon you this Da Sha Dan.drink more water,think lesser about all those sad things and smile more. :D

Just another day hur?

2009-05-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morning just like yesterday.but at least there is something for me to do yesterday which was to help someone take the emotions of msn and convert it into computer pictures.happy cause it was a success.Currently sitting infront of the computer and doing nothing.yes yes yes,i am typing so i cant say i am completely not doing anything.now awaiting for things to do.some people ask me what you doing.i say i at home slack.guess what they say?wahhs.vin you so emo uhhs?not i dont wan go out.is no place to go and even if go also don't know if i am willing to go over there anot.

Then later tamago ask me go prawning also don't know want go anot lerhs.later go le also down there rot.so see how ba.if he call and pester me with stupid reasons which i can't outwit him then i will consider going prawning with him and shimmy plus his friends?plus the prawning site is just a road across my house so they can come my house and kidnap me over there.=x but i dont think they have the guts to do it.i will skin them alive except for shim.if got anything else later then post ba.don't know what to write for now.

Stomach is growling.where's my food?!?!?!?!? hungry~

2009-05-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

wahhs...blog rotting le.Fa mei le.just like me.well suddenly got time so came here to blog things which occurred though i cant remember all of it.quite alot of things happened.got happy,got sad things happened.
i remembered that the past few days i help alot of people with things.strangers,friends and family.but something hurts when i helped a small boy retrieving his frisbee which went into the bush.he called me uncle can help me take the frisbee.i didnt knew that i looked old alrdy.in the past a few same cases happened already D= so and some other things i helped too.(lazy to type)

Then alot of thing happen.i forget all already because i went to play game.hmmm...then ytd was a fun day outside.went out with people.some people so funny.keep repeatingsomething she can pronouce out.xD then home in mrt with her and thats all lurhs...lazy blog le.next time then blog

2009-05-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

Today don't know what was going on.i woke up at 12 plus when i slept for about 12 hours.am i really that tired?later xiaozhu msged me and said she was bored,so she came to find me at my house.Later went to lan and played audi plus some other games.while playing some people messaged me and started to quarrel.i don't know what she wants and she didn't said what she wants too.all the things she is trying to say is just repeating in circles.she said so much things and yet she said no one bothers.if no one bothers then why is she saying all the things out now?weird right?saying that i don't know what i am talking while she is the one confusing me.mean what you say and say what you mean please.don't confuse other people's mind along with yours.you say you don't want to bother me anymore then don't bother me now.i didn't asked or plead you to bother me so please stop your shits.

After playing all the games went to amk hub's food court to eat.Eat finished le send her home by mrt.she was trying to cheer me up all the way.though i look moody but i am still ok.i was chilled all the way.didn't blow up or what so ever.just forget about it.

After sending her home le,i called px to chat.if i didnt called her i didn't know that YOU(JASPER LOW WEI CHIANG) was why she was msging and arguing with me.when someone asked you not to say something out please don't say it out.plus i asked px to look at the phone is not because i want to spot check her but i want px to see those photos only.please don't put words into my mouth.this is the last time i am ever going to trust you.and for goodness sake,please don't come in and read my blog.i don't want my personal like to get in to you.thanks for whatever you have help me so far still but this is too much don't you think so?don't take me for granted.sometimes i let you disturb me or i helped you with taiji doesn't mean i will help you everytime.mind your old ways hor.

Everyone is so busy.Y.R don't even seemed concern about my matters.maybe i am bothering him too much le ba.got anything i also won't confront him le.(SENTENCED REMOVED BY BAO JING TIAN)Thank Jx.no you i also dunno no mood until how le.i guessed thats for the day.don't feel like typing anymore things for now.Continue blogging when i feel like ba.

today is a day

2009-04-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

Today was ok.wake up earlier in the morning.messaged Y.R wanted to meet at the Mrt but in the end we planned to meet outside school.as usual i went out of the house took 262 then change to 22 straight to school.Meet Y.R outside Tamp Safra.went for class late again.got warned by teacher.><

After lesson went to Tamp Seoul Garden to eat wif Amzar,Adli,Wani and Yani.they were planning to keep the stomach empty and eat from 12-4 which is 4 hours straight eating.we took alot of diff food cooked,ate,chatted and laughing.took some pics when eating.Adli is trying to act how some girls normally take photo with foods
guess what amzar is drinking?self-made strawberry mikeshake from ice-creams x=

Had the day like this.after that Mrted home with Amzar as he was going for errands.then home rest and used the com till now.blogging here and chatting on msn.Thanks peoples.thanks Y.R.Thanks qiqi for ur counselling.you don't sad too. :D

Some people might not trust what we say and we cant force them to trust us too.
There's nothing we can do but just await for time to prove that.
So there is no point to worry or think so much now.
Cause the outcome is still the same.or isn't it the same?

What a Day

2009-04-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

uhhh.Don't know how to start anymore.always starting the same way.Nvm.continue the same way for now until i think of other ways.Early in the morning went up,go bath,ate breakfast and left the house to lavender to meet Y.R.he was late again.-.- one more time only arhhs confirm going to dao you liao. :x

Went to school for lesson.lesson end early as all the lesson are being cancelled and end bout 11plus.went to Tamp Safra to slack,played pool.so unlucky sia,in black ball two times while i was winning!forget bout it.just not my day.After that went to lan for awhile because Y.R also nothing to do then sit there.Played a no. of games then left Tamp Safra.

Went to meet Nina for lunch :D wif Y.R cause he go home early also sian.on the way to Dover was so funny.HOR Y.R?the person got sleeping skill.Found Nina at Mrt and went to Orchard to have lunch.Went to buy the choc called nama choc.ex but nice i guess.Choose the food for don't know but in the end we ate at AMBUSH.the food there not bad quite nice but don't really like mine cause i can't eat spicy and i ordered spicy without noticing.So still tahan ate finished everything.i didn't know my drink need to be stirred as i thought they will stir for me so i found out in the end cause it was too sweet.><
After that i let Y.R and Nina tried the choc.It seemed that it is nice.Then we walked back to Orchard Mrt.Y.R took the opposite direction from us.Then i Mrt-ed home with Nina!:D talk with each other all the way back to bishan.When you buying shoes remember to tell me.i want to buy too.

I guessed that my attitude is getting out of hand.it is time to be more shut up and polite.i am sorry Y.R , i am trying to make you talk not trying to XL you.><

i don't know what is on my mind.but for now i just want to try emptying everything except for my studies.well.awaiting for tomorrow.

i am sorry.i aint fit for those cares

2009-04-26T20:07:00.000+08:00

Morning waked up thinking of what to do.Then called quite a few people cause no place to go.actually got plans but all put airplane.So called jasper out for pool then met him at 2(suppose to be 1.30)i am sorry.Played pool all the way then.Went to find him with Jiamin.played and laugh.

After that don't know what time dispersed.Me and jiamin walked from YCK to AMK,ate suki sushi.Joking around inside taking food,playing the food.saying the clam jump floor.took vegetable and throw at each other.after that went home.

i am sorry i ran.i am sorry that i can't face you(for now).i am really sorry for all that i've done.sorry i left you walking back alone.sorry i let you wait outside my house not even considering to open the door i am sorry that i didnt reply you and i am sorry that i didn't pick up your call.but of all i want to say is that i just can't force myself to face you now.it's too much.i am sorry.dui bu qi

ahvin isn't fit to be a person.no even fit to be loved.
xu jia hao is gone.what gone is gone.it can never can back.can it?
once it was a dream,now it's a nightmare.
To {Hate} or to {Love} To be {Sad} or to be {Happy}
To {Accept} or to {Regret} To {Leave} or to {Stay}

2009-04-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm...same day as all in the morning.Late for lesson again.don't know what is happening to me.i tried to wake up so early but still late for lesson.Lesson today was quite ok.Learn about the computer parts and so on.

Lesson ended at 11plus so went to bowling area to slack.12 we went off,some go home and Y.R,Weiliang,Gary plus me took the same bus go to lavender there.i got nothing to do then didn't want to go home earlier as i got nothing to do so went to eat den followed by going to Y.R's house.Played computer games,talk lame jokes and chat the whole day.i keep shooting Y.R with words,making him speechless.paiseh.i am sorry.forgive me ok?

Then all the way till 9pm went for dinner with Weiliang plus Y.R pei us go.after eating finish send Y.R to the house downstairs then go to the road near Weiliang's house to take cab.cabbed home and i am blogging here.that's all i guess.can't think of anything else to write.Continue when i remember or next post ba.

Y.R i am really sorry.You will have the time to speak de.sometimes just ignore me.i dunno if i am going overboard anot but if i am just tell me.>< Life is all about what?enjoyment,job or love?maybe everything?

~Lights Off~

2009-04-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

ROAR~!~!~!~!~!~!
Earlier in the morning started raining le,then didn't attend the pe lesson.don't know why also.maybe no mood cause raining barhs?Then went back to sleep le.

After went up went to bath then saw the time thought i was going to be late cause lesson start at around 12?then i went to flag a cab.how would i know it will happen that way sia.don't wanna talk bout that also.only can say my $$ fly sia.
Then reached school with a describable face.Don't know sad or angry sia,but i am feeling none i guess?Then lesson all the way.

Breaktime went slack 1st with Y.R,Erwin then alot of ppl come all of a sudden.Later went pool along wif Y.R.we play pool then talk alot sia(Personal Stuffs).Play play till 3.05 though going to late for lesson so we ran.Didn't expect that we are right on time =.= Then lesson all the way again.
During lesson,alot of people asked what happen to me.why i like so sad.Even Mr.Sri also come asked me why i so serious.don't know why why why and why.lesson over,walked to the bus-stop wif usual people.Said bye to my Longan Darling and bused on 65 wif classmates.dropped for the bus as i need to change bus then i forgortteen to take my cap in the classroom.hope my cap is still there tmr.

Life is Jus Life.You can't change it so can't i.But we can make it better.Don't you think so?
If yes?WHY NOT DO SO NOW? =.= Joke Sia You

Day of the days

2009-04-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

Lols...waked up 5plus in the morning cause i put quite a number of alarms.scared i will be late for lesson.Then after that Vicky msged me and chat for awhile till she go for the assembly.Then went to school onwards.Msged yuenrong and meet him at the school bus-stop there wif gary.walked to school and started lesson at 8plus.after that life was as usual and the teacher sucks.seriously sucks.wanted to study properly de,but let him spoiled the whole mood.

Zoom~zoom~i shortcut abit.cause lazy type as i got alot more tings to type.lesson end early by 2 hours sia.which is actually suppose to be 1 hour early only.dunno how my classmates trick the teacher.Then went to slack at Tamp Safra and went for 1.5 hour of lan.owned sia.LOL.Oh MY~
-.-'' me and gary shouting there.

After the whole game tingy Kenny,Gary and Erwin went off 1st.Then my another called me up and met at Tamp Safra to play pool.No table so me and Kevin played snooker 1st.Then YR and Weiliang awhile went off le.Later somesort like eat with Kevin cause it is our so called "1st month anniversary"where we said we stead(kidding de la).Then did my own tings wif frens.Bussed home.So damm long. x.x

Happy 1st month anni Kevin.aka.Longan xD <3

2009-04-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

Siala.My ownself de blog sia.(though i did say i nvr wanted to blog).wells,tts the past anyway.

wanna Thanks Jx for helping me with this.Post my life tmr.goin to sleep liao.